Today I’m having a low day.
I know logically, that I’m feeling low because I’m tired and run down. I’ve been over thinking things.
I know that tomorrow I won’t feel like I do today.
I know that tomorrow will likely be a better day.
…but today, the weight of the world seems to be crashing in on me.
All the negative voices in my head are clamoring for attention. Making me believe things that I know just aren’t true, and even in saying that I want to say – but what if they are.
It’s tough when you know that you have anxiety and mood swings. You know logically that what your brain is telling you isn’t necessarily the truth.
It’s hard carring on through a regular day smiling and laughing, making others believe that everything is okay, when inside everything is NOT okay.
Why can’t anyone see it.
So, just for today I’m going to go a little easier on myself. I’m going to get through what needs to be done, but nothing more.
Instead of trying to squeeze in an extra half hour of work when I get home I’m going to play a mindless video game, or read a book, or maybe even just crawl into bed as soon as the littlest goes to bed.
Just for today, I’m going to be gentle on myself, even though the voices in my head, aren’t.